Biggest desire

Bound by indifferences I've loved but briefly,
In a pointless attempt of finding what's been desired the most.
A mixture of tears and smiles where effectivly wasted during this inconvenient proces wich carried along a large dosis of blame and guilt, where I tend to suffocate under from time to time.
It has not been my wish nor my goal to have such a spiraling thread entangled with this course of life.
I can only look back and learn from what I firmly believed was right, and attempt to adjust this believe to more accurate conditions while, regretfully bound by indifferences, still attemt to find whats been desired the most.